It’s 3 a.m and I barely got home. It’s been an exhausting day and journey for me and my family. My aunt passed away not too long ago. She passed away around 10:20 a.m on August 26, 2008 (Philippines date and time). I’ve been running around comforting my grandparents, but couldn’t help just stressing out and crying so much. I’m not angry that she’s gone. I’m moreso mad that I never really got the chance to say goodbye or anything like that. I love her to death, and it really dissapoints me that my family is going through so much right now. On top of that not even a good 30 minutes after I’ve left my grandparents house, my grandmother called me to come back and take my grandfather to the E.R.

My grandfather had 4 teeth pulled out today, and since 10 a.m this morning he’s been bleeding his mouth off. He barely got anything to drink or eat, and it’s bleeding profusely. It’s bad, let’s just say it’s gushing out. He’s still at the hospital. I just left for a good hour or so to shower, get ready for work, and go back to the hospital. I’m really worried, and I talked to the nurse my grandfather is showing slight signs of Anemia. She told me it’s not so severe at this point, and won’t be needing a blood transfusion. Thank God though that he’s not too anemic. However, he might be admitted, and at this point I’m not sure what’s going to happen. My grandmother had requested to stay in the hospital with him so I’m just taking a quick break, because they’ll be really needing me.

I’m super stressed out, and I don’t know what to do anymore. My mind and body is so exhausted, and I’m emotionally distraught. Maybe, it really hasn’t hit me yet, besides the crying that she’s gone. My whole family had really strange things happen to them today around the time she passed away, whether it’d be 10 a.m in the Philippines the time that I started doing something my Aunt really loved (which is playing around with her makeup, and organizing her things, randomnly. That just hit me to do it at that time, odd), or my grandfather started bleeding like crazy, or the stories my mom and Aunt told me. I really miss my Aunt and I keep seeing her face everywhere. I want to just break down, but I’m the only one my grandparents has here at this time. I’m really upset about everything, but I’m trying real hard to keep my faith up.

I still have to go to work this morning. I’ve already lost so many hours, and days just for being sick, or for paperwork I have to do with my mom or for my Aunt. I really don’t feel like going to work, but I have no choice. I’m super tired, but I can’t sleep. She happens to be my favorite Aunt, and knowing that she’s  gone really breaks my heart. My grandmother asked my Aunts to wear white at the viewing and funeral, but honestly I haven’t quite accepted it yet as much as they did. At this point, I don’t think I will or want to.

WARNING REALLY LONG POST AHEAD
It’s really been a while since I’ve laid an entry on my blog. I’m not sure whether that was because I was busy, or just due to the fact that I was lazy. Either way it really has been a while since I’ve last posted, or at least I think so. I apologize for the lack of updates on both websites.

First things first. I’ve been working on my other website, and it’s going to get relaunched. I decided that if I revamp and just spend more time on my site more people will visit. I’m sure all of you women out there want quick tutorials, pictures, makeup hauls, etc. I just need more time to do that since it’s not easy making and editing videos for youtube. On another note I’m going to try and update more often. It’s just that by the time that I get home from work I’m really tired.

On a more personal level.

I just wanted to let you all know that I’ve finally launched SoGirly.nu. Please check that out, and join! I’d also appreciate it if you guys can plug the website for me. Thanks a lot! I hope this becomes a great hit. I’m going to start posting lots of interesting related beauty, health, and fashion tips on there. Feel free to check it out!!

Thanks. I’ve got to go back to work now.